I am so tired of being broke!

My dh works hard in public service, and he doesn't get paid enough. The state of Tx doesn't care about it's employees. I can't leave my kids with strangers, so I stay home. I am currently working towards a medical transcriptionion degree, but my joints have been hurting so much that it hurts to type for long periods (but that's a whole other story!). Plus I am so tired that whenever I sit at the computer and start reading boring medical stuff, I start falling asleep. So now I am looking to take care of 1 or 2 kids in my home, but no luck in finding someone yet. I have thought of selling some gluten-free stuff, like gluten-free oreo-style cookies or bread or something, but I don't know that many ppl w/ celiac in this area. I made a batch of oreo-style cookies for our latest support group meeting and they were a big hit. I was hoping someone would ask me if they could buy some, but it didn't happen. Plus all those ppl live about an hour away from me. My dream is to start a gluten-free bakery, but that would cost thousands of dollars, which I don't have

. It's like this neverending cycle when you have no money. You can think of things to do, but they require an investment, which can't happen. I am SO FRUSTRATED and I feel so sad and depressed because I can't afford to do the things my kids want to do. And I HATE not having enough good food for my kids. My toddlers really deserve more than a hot dog and slice of cheese every day for lunch, but that is all I can afford to give them.
Sorry this has turned into such a depressing rant! I just had to share w/ someone! My dh feels guilty when I complain to him. My mom just pushes me to hurry up and finish my schooling, but I don't think I will be able to because of my other health problems. And I have no one else to "talk" to. So, if you are still reading this, I appreciate it! And if you are the praying kind of person, please say some prayers for us that we can get out of our financial problems for once in our lives. I am sick of this. Why can't we just win the lottery??? (I guess we have to actually play to win, but we don't have enough money to play!)
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